yes.
i'm starting over.
lately i've felt rather restricted.
[& i am not quite sure why.]
i tried a new layout...
and a new profile picture.
but it just isn't cutting it for me.
i guess i'm trying to rid myself of this clutter.
so here is my new attempt::

<3<3<3<3<3 <--clickity click

goodbye loves.

edit!!

ok yeah..
that previous entry was rather confusing.
so let me clarify:
boys = no good <heart3 b r e a k e r s.


but that statement only applies to:
the boys who fail to notice that i exist.


yes.
the same exact boys that don't even realize i'm talking about them.

but i must say~
i truely do heart David
for comming to Columbia today!!
it was super sweet of him to spend some time with me.


[it kind of makes you re-evaluate who you're real friends are. you know?]

<3

tomorrow i was suppose to head up to Indy with the Cozands.
but by the looks of things,
it looks like i have to work all day instead.
horray!
[ /sarcasm ]
it is rather upsetting actually.
i haven't seen a single drum corps. show all summer.
whereas i promised everyone i'd be to like a million of them.
i suck. end of story.
ugh. i'm not even sure if i'll ever march again...
i guess it all depends on how fatty i can get my wallet,
before auditions start this fall.

gah.

&& on top of all that:
these allergies are currently kicking my ass.

yes yes i know...
things are just oh-so-wonderful.

i do apologize for all of this added sarcasm.
today just hasn't been one of the greatest,
due to untold factors i refuse to announce on here.

[ sigh. ] off to work i go.

edit!! [ 11:42 p.m. ]

i SO could have made a killing in tips tonight...
but i am so much of a fucking push-over,
i let the new girl i was training to take every other table.
so i came home 15+ dollars poorer.
[ oh woe is me. ]
& she even asked to take over some of my shifts.
WTF!!!!!!
thankfully, i stood up for myself:
&& told her 'no!'
she has two other fucking jobs...
there is no need for her to pick up my shifts for me.

no. i'm not mad at all.
...not one bit...

i am so good at letting people walk all over me.

[ && i know it too. ]

/edit.

you know what...

i love you.

[x 100.]

edit!

well, they fired that cute cook at work.
and it is rather depressing because,
he made work worth comming to.
... kinda like that hot bartender ...
but of course, he is in the wedding planning process.
it sure makes me wonder if i'll ever find Mr. Right.
everytime i think i have,
something always goes wrong.
maybe i wasn't made for relationships.
ehh.

whatever.

/edit.